Do You Trust God?
“Woe to the one who argues with his Maker.” Isaiah 45.9
The quarterly theme for Cultivating Oaks Press is Renewing Trust, and I don’t know that we have ever collectively struggled so much, as a group, to write something. I am still making my way through the essays in the Spring edition, but I know from emails and Zoom meetings and conversations with others involved that this topic was a real doozy.
You’d think a bunch of Christians would have this one in the bag.
What I think you will get from the essays this quarter is that sense of struggling to accept the ways you trust God or don’t; the ways you trust yourself or don’t; the way nothing in this world seems trustworthy, but Jesus is. I think these essays will come alongside you in your doubts. And if I know anything about my fellow Makers in this endeavor, their essays will settle you in a God of mystery who is worth continually seeking out, even when you don’t understand.
I don’t outright argue with God, but I have raged unanswered questions into what felt like the void a time or two. Why and how; why not and but you said. If You say You desire one thing but then You allow another thing to happen, what am I supposed to think? There have been times in my walk with the Lord that felt like I was being punked, like the joke was on me and yes there is a God and He laughs at my expense, or has deaf ears to my prayers, or preserves His word just so I can spend my life untangling its knots.
Read my full essay here: For When You Want to Argue With God.